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2005 Presidential Keynote Address
The Analyst's Participation in Co-Creating the Analytic Relationship:
Implicit and Explicit Dimensions of Analytic Change
by James L. Fosshage, Ph.D.
My task this evening, as I see it, is to highlight and contribute to
the theoretical context for our deliberations over the next several
days. To do so, I thought, I must take a bird's eye perspective, or
perhaps a more contemporary image is a Good Year Blimp perspective, to
provide a schematic overview. And after all, look at the vast terrain
that we will cover at this conference: transference,
relationship/enactment, and dramatic and spontaneous moments in creating
clinical momentum toward analytic change. An overview helps to keep us
oriented; yet, it can be frustrating because so many of the intricate
details must be left out, so many of the salient questions must remain
unaddressed. Well, in my inner dialogue, what if on occasion I dive
down or zoom in for a closer look, homing in on some of those issues
that entice me and, hopefully, will entice you, and then to bound
skyward again for a more aerial view.
So, in light of my conclusion on how to contribute to our theoretical
context, I first will delineate, ever so schematically, the
revolutionary paradigm changes that have been taking place in
psychoanalysis over the past twenty-five years, the new model of
transference with implications for the concept of enactment, and the
implicit and explicit dimensions of analytic work, leading to what, in
my view, is the conceptualization of two fundamental pathways to
analytic change. I will then conclude with a focus on the radical
ongoing extension of the analyst's participation, using, as an example,
the co-creation of analytic love and providing several brief clinical
illustrations. The leading edge question guiding my discussion is, "How
does analytic change occur?" So let us begin.
Throughout the history of psychoanalysis a running battle has been
waged between interpretation/insight and relational experience as focal
points for therapeutic action (Fosshage, 2005). Interpretation/insight
gained its preferential momentum in the first two-thirds of the
twentieth century from the positivistic science and objectivism of the
day that positioned the analyst to become the purveyor of objective
"truth," truth, it was thought, that the patient's ego would know how to
use to bring about needed psychological change. The subsequent ongoing
transition in paradigms from positivistic to relativistic science and,
for some to hermeneutics, from objectivism to constructivism, catalyzed
by Heisenberg's Uncertainty Principle, dethroned the analyst from
a protected, elevated position of objectivity and boldly confronted the
analyst with an increasing recognition not only of the influence of the
analyst's subjectivity in constructing interpretations but also of the
analyst's participation in co-creating the analytic relationship.
This epistemological transition, in turn, catalyzed a second paradigm
shift from intrapsychic theory to relational, intersubjective, or
systems field theory. Relational field theory posits that
psychological development, transference, and the analytic relationship
are not primarily intrapsychically generated, but emerge within and are
shaped by relational systems. Absenting the analyst's objectivity and
revealing the analyst's participation implicates relational experience
to be the crucible of therapeutic action. I (Fosshage, 2005) recently
wrote, "So important is the relational interaction that
exploratory/interpretive analytic work is best subsumed as one, and only
one, aspect of analytic relational experience that itself can only be
understood within the context of that experience" (p. 517). A systems
or relational field perspective reveals the participation of the analyst
and the analyst's subjectivity more fully in the analytic relationship
"than," to paraphrase Shakespeare's Hamlet, "our philosophies ever
dreamt possible."
A central analytic task from a constructivist/systems perspective is
for the analyst and patient to understand as best as they can through a
collaborative "spirit of inquiry" (Lichtenberg, Lachmann and Fosshage,
2002) "Who's contributing what?" to the patient's experience and to the
analyst's experience in the analytic interaction. The empathic
listening/experiencing perspective, formulated out of an emergent
constructivist sensibility (first by Kohut and meaningfully elaborated
by Evelyn Schwaber whom we are fortunate to have participating at our
conference), is, especially for self psychologists and Schwaber, primary
in analytic exploration and reflects the asymmetrical focus on the
patient in analytic inquiry. Yet, it, in my view, is precisely because
of the complexity of the patient and analyst variable contributions to
the relational interaction and the need to participate in different
forms of relating that requires us to use other listening/experiencing
perspectives, what I call the other-centered and the analyst's self
perspectives. The other-centered perspective refers to the
analyst's experience of the analysand as "an other" in a relationship
with the patient-what it feels like to be the other person (Fosshage,
1995). Information garnered from this perspective potentially informs
us about how the analysand impacts others, about the analysand's
implicit patterns of relating, and about how the analysand is
expansively establishing new ways of relating. While the empathic and
other-centered perspectives are focused on the patient, other occasions
require the analyst to be reflective about his own subjective experience
from his personal perspective, what I have termed, the analyst's self
perspective (Fosshage, 2003). When, for example, the analysand focuses
on the analyst's subjectivity or the analyst's reactions to the
analysand, the analyst needs to reflect on and assess his subjective
experience from his self perspective and, on occasion, to share directly
his subjective experience to facilitate exploration of who's
contributing what to the analysand's experience as well as to deepen the
relational encounter. During moments of intersubjective relatedness,
as Jessica Benjamin (whom we are fortunate to have participating in this
conference) has so well delineated, juxtaposition of the subjective
experience of each can highlight differences and similarities between
two subjectivities that can be growth promoting. Countertransference,
what, in my view, is more accurately referred to as "the analyst's
experience of the patient," may oscillate between any one and several of
these listening/experiencing perspectives.
While understanding a patient and a patient's experience is a
central analytic task, I remind you that, from the vantage point of
relational field theory, this exploratory process is only one, albeit
crucially important, aspect of analytic relational experience. Other
dimensions of analytic relating will be delineated.
Transference
Transference is one of the pivotal, yet most controversial and
changing, concepts in psychoanalysis today. The conceptual change
emanates in large measure from the paradigm transitions from objectivism
to constructivism and from intrapsychic to relational field theory.
Freud's model of transference refers to the transfer or displacement
of feelings, wishes and attitudes related to infantile objects on to
later objects, especially on to the analyst (Loewald, 1960). If
transference emanates from the patient and "distorts" the patient's
perception of the analyst, then it follows clinically that the
maintenance of anonymity, neutrality and a blank screen best positions
the analyst to avoid muddying the waters and to reflect back the
analysand's displacements and projections-an elegant intrapsychic model.
The emergent model of transference, what I call the organization
model and Hoffman terms the constructivist model, centers on the
on-going perceptual-cognitive-affective organization of our lives. A
number of psychoanalysts (Wachtel, 1980; Gill, 1982; Hoffman, 1983;
Stolorow and Lachmann, 1984/85, Fosshage, 1994; Lichtenberg, Lachmann
and Fosshage, 1996), integrating cognitive psychology, have focused on
the formation of the predominant ways in which we have come to see
ourselves and ourselves in relation to others. What has become central
are these affect-laden thematic organizing processes, emergent from
lived experience, that variably shape our experience through the use of
four affective/cognitive processes: (1) expectancies, (2) selective
attention, (3) attribution of meaning, and (4) interpersonal
construction (Fosshage, 1994). Transference now refers "to the primary
organizing patterns or schemas with which the analysand constructs and
assimilates his or her experience of the analytic relationship"
(Fosshage, 1994, p. 271).
Many, if not most, contemporary psychoanalytic authors within the
various relational approaches are in the process of transitioning into
this new model of transference, ferreting out its implications. All
relational analysts, using the term broadly, note and work with the
patient's repetitive organizations or constructions (Stolorow/Lachmann,
1984/85). A patient's problematic expectancies (Lichtenberg, Lachmann,
and Fosshage, 1996), established on the basis of past experience, tend
to pull analyst and patient into repetitive vortexes of interaction-what
I call repetitive enactments. To explore and understand the meanings
of the repetitive interaction serves to extricate patient and analyst
from its grips and implicitly creates new experience. Some American
Relational authors, Bromberg (1998) for example, believe that new
experience only emerges through the analysis of repetitive
enactments.
In self psychology a second selfobject dimension or class of
transferences, however, is identified referring to a patient's seeking
needed selfobject experience. Kohut's motivational model of
developmental strivings has created
a self psychological sensibility to attend to what a patient is striving
for, what Kohut (Miller, 1985) and Marion Tolpin (2002) call the
"leading edge." (You will hear the leading edge interventions in
Marion Tolpin's clinical presentation tomorrow.) Lichtenberg (1989),
in turn, has delineated 5 motivational arenas in which a person strives
to grow. Thus, an analyst experiences a second type of interactive
pull, the selfobject pull, that involves a patient's hoped-for
expectancies to create with the analyst needed growth-promoting,
vitalizing experience-what I call a vitalizing enactment. Not only
must an analyst hear and understand what a patient is developmentally
seeking, but an analyst also must be sufficiently available to
participate in co-creating the needed vitalizing experience (what Kohut
in 1977 called empathic responsiveness). While other relational
psychoanalysts outside of self psychology have increasingly delineated
the "new beginning" (Balint, 1968) and the curative impact of new
relational experience, their emphases in addressing analytic change has
tilted toward the exploratory extrication from repetitive enactments.
In my view, the difference in emphases between contemporary self
psychologists and other contemporary relational analysts is squarely
anchored in motivational theory. Self psychologists, as the Jungians,
emphasize strivings to grow, to develop, to actualize. Other
relational analysts tend not to address motivational theory in keeping
with the postmodern antipathy to the consideration of human "essences."
As for all analysts, however, motivational assumptions are implicitly
operative in their work and tend to coalesce around attachment
strivings. Ghent (1990), an exception in addressing motivation,
initially in 1990 posited a "central object-seeking motivation" (p.
110), but subsequently in a paper published posthumously posited two
fundamental motivations, one for safety and the other for expansion
(2002, p.799), the latter corresponding more closely with the self
psychological view.
The analyst, thus, variably experiences two types of interactive pull
from the patient: to engage with the patient in constructing familiar
repetitive problematic interactions and to engage with the patient in
creating the hoped-for, vitalizing experiences. The term enactment,
thus, must be expanded to include the repetitive as well as the
growth-promoting vitalizing experiences.
Identification of what a patient is striving for, in my view, is one
of the most significant clinical contributions of self psychology. To
highlight the leading edge of the material, implicitly allying with the
patient's strivings, facilitates psychological growth and the
therapeutic process. In essence, we need to analyze the repetitive
pull while at the same time be sufficiently available and responsive to
the selfobject pull to enable patient and analyst to co-create needed
vitalizing experience-two pathways to analytic change.
Among a number of centrally important clinical implications of the
organization model of transference are issues related to ubiquity of
transferential focus and transference/extratransference. Traditional
clinical notions that all transferences must be brought into the
analytic relationship and that clinical material must be understood as
referring directly or indirectly to the transference are based on
assumptions from the intrapsychic model of transference and potentially
create a noxiously dominating analyst-centric climate. Within the
organizing or constructivist model of transference, it is understood
that patient and analyst variably co-contribute to the patient's
experience of the analytic relationship. To assume and expect that all
transferential themes will emerge in the analytic relationship negates
the analyst's contribution. Each analyst will affect the transference
differently. It is quite possible that a particular analyst might not
directly elicit all of a patient's primary problematic organizing
patterns, or will not become as embroiled in some of the repetitive
pulls. Some of the repetitive themes might be more powerfully
addressed in so-called extratransferential relationships. Even more
important, to assume that extraanalytic material refers directly to the
analytic relationship can easily blur differential experiences and
inadvertently rivet the patient to the particular activated
transferential themes. If transference is defined, as Gill (1982) did,
as the patient's experience of the analytic relationship, then all of a
patient's communications within the analytic setting by definition have
transferential meaning. To solve this conundrum, I (1994) have
proposed that "the meaningÉmay not be related to the content but to the
process of communicating" (p.276). For example, when a patient is
describing a shame-ridden abusive experience, most likely the patient is
not experiencing the analyst as abusive at that moment, that is,
interpreting the content as applicable to the transference, but is
experiencing the analyst as sufficiently safe and protective to be able
to communicate the painful experience, that is, interpreting the process
of communicating as having the transferential meaning.
To continue to use the term, transference, provides continuity in our
field; yet, it does not capture the organization or constructivist
model. While organizing patterns are established on the basis of past
experience, they are not transferred, but remain as active, ongoing
perceptual/organizing process. In addition, the core process of
organizing activity in the new model precludes a categorical distinction
between transference and non-transference for both involve organizing
processing. Organizing activity, instead, varies along a number of
dimensions-for example, frequency of activation, accessibility to
consciousness, and devitalizing to vitalizing. The term, transference,
as a categorical distinction, tends to connote perceptual distortion
that, in turn, invalidates a patient's perception and closes off
inquiry. Identifying organizing patterns opens up the process to find
and explore the cues attended to and the attribution of meanings. The
cues attended to implicates the analyst's participation. The analyst's
acknowledgement provides implicit validation that, in turn, lowers a
patient's aversiveness and opens up more reflective space for assessing
the patient's and analyst's various contributions.
Implicit and Explicit Domains of Learning, Memory and
Knowledge
Most cognitive science models differentiate between two, at times
three, memory systems.(Epstein, 1994). I will focus on those models
that differentiate between two domains of learning and
memory-implicit/nondeclarative and explicit/declarative. These memory
systems differ in type of information processed, principles of
operation, and neurological structures, and, yet, often more than one
system in involved in performing particular tasks (Schacter and Tulving,
1994). Whereas the explicit/declarative memory system involves the
processing of information that an individual can consciously recall and
"declare to remember" (Davis, 2001, p. 451), the
implicit/non-declarative memory system involves the processing of
information typically outside an individual's awareness, does not
require focal attention for encoding, and, therefore, is less accessible
to conscious recall. The implicit/non-declarative system includes
several memory systems one of which is called procedural memory. While
explorations of implicit procedural memory was first applied to
behavioral sequences-for example, riding a bike, playing
tennis-beginning in the early 1990's, applicability of the implicit
memory system was extended to include social learning, specifically to
learned patterns of relating (Clyman, 1991; Grigsby and Hartlaub, 1994).
As you well know, Dan Stern (whom we are privileged to have this
evening) and his Boston Change Process Study Group have been
contributing substantially to our understanding of how these memory
systems operate and change within analysis, making "implicit relational
knowing" a household term in our field.
A person's senses of self and others are derived from past, present,
and anticipated future lived experience, with past experience "housed,"
if you will, within the implicit and explicit memory systems (Fosshage,
2005). Implicit mental models affect explicit memory, and explicit
memory cues evoke implicit memories. The concept Ôimplicit mental
models,' emerging out of experimental research in cognitive psychology,
converges with the neuroscience concept of neural memory networks or
maps (Fosshage, 2005). With the integration of cognitive psychology
into psychoanalysis, it is not surprising that these concepts resonate
closely with a number of psychoanalytic terms-for example, internal
working models (Bowlby, 1973), principles or patterns of organization
(Wachtel, 1980; Stolorow and Lachmann, 1984/85; Fosshage, 1994; Sander,
1997), pathogenic beliefs (Weiss and Sampson, 1986); mental
representations (Fonagy, 1993); expectancies (Lichtenberg, Lachmann, and
Fosshage, 1996), and, now, implicit relational knowing (Stern et al,
1998).
While the "implicit and explicit dance" (Fosshage, 2004) in the
psychoanalytic arena is extremely complex and far from clear, we know
that implicit procedural learning occurs through relational processes
often out of awareness and explicit/declarative learning occurs through
the more traditional psychoanalytic emphasis on exploration and expanded
awareness. Our understanding of implicit procedural learning and
memory highlights the fundamental importance of ongoing relational
experience within the psychoanalytic encounter, much of which never sees
the light of day in terms of explicit analytic focus. The fact that
new procedures of relating are learned in the analytic relationship and
are central to therapeutic change implicates the magnitude of the
analyst's participation and the importance of the analyst's explicit and
implicit procedural relational knowing and capacity for intimacy.
The current cutting edge focus is on assessing how implicit and
explicit processing and memory are interconnected (I refer you to a
paper by Stern, et al, 1998, in the International Journal of
Psychoanalysis; to Lyons-Ruth, 1999, in Psychoanalytic
Inquiry; to a recent paper by the Boston Change Process Study Group,
2005, in JAPA; and to a paper of my own-my self marketing for the
evening-that just appeared in the last issue of Psychoanalytic
Inquiry). An issue pivotal for the consideration of therapeutic
action centers on the potential accessibility of implicit learning to
consciousness. Implicit relational knowing that is not accessible to
consciousness can only be changed through new implicit relational
learning that either gradually transforms previous implicit knowing or
establishes new implicit mental models that become more dominant to
offset earlier established models. Stern, Lyons-Ruth and their
colleagues have focused on and are delineating this avenue of change.
New implicit relational learning corresponds with Loewald's (1960)
emphasis on new object experience and Kohut's (1984) noting that ongoing
selfobject experience creates change.
Clinical evidence suggests, however, that implicit procedural
knowledge varies with regard to access to consciousness. Implicit
procedural learning that, for example, begins with an
explicit/declarative focus, gradually established as procedural memory
appears to be more available to consciousness in spite of the fact that
it functions at a nonconscious level of awareness.
Exploratory/interpretive focus on this type of implicit procedure, for
example, a negative self percept, can contribute to its suspension or
deactivation, facilitating the establishment of a new self percept based
on new implicit and explicit relational experience.
To summarize, two basic change processes involving implicit
procedures and explicit attitudes, in my view, occur in the
psychoanalytic encounter. In some instances implicit relational
procedures never see "the light of day" (that is, conscious awareness is
never brought about through an exploratory process) and are gradually
altered, by accommodation or diminished activation, through repetitive
new implicit relational experience. In contrast, when implicit mental
models are potentially accessible to consciousness, the "spirit of
inquiry" (Lichtenberg, Lachmann, and Fosshage, 2002) illuminates both
the autobiographical scenarios of the explicit memory system and the
mental models of the implicit memory system that contribute to a sense
of self and self- with-other. This process, explicitly and implicitly,
over time increases reflective capacity that enables a patient to
deactivate or suspend the older implicit and explicit organizing
patterns, so that new implicit and explicit models based on current
relational experience can be gradually established in both memory
systems for lasting change. The foreground and background shifts that
comprise the dance between the implicit and explicit systems provide an
important key to understanding and facilitating the psychoanalytic
process (Fosshage, 2005).
The Analyst's Participation
Contemporary analysts of the various relational approaches have been
expanding the view of the analyst's participation to include the complex
subjectivities of both participants and to expand the range of the
analyst's participation.
Bacal's (1985, 1998) "optimal responsiveness," Bacal's and Herzog's
(2003) "the specificity of selfobject experience in therapeutic
relatedness," Orange's (1995) "emotional understanding," Lazar's (1998)
"necessary facilitating enactments," Lichtenberg, Lachmann, and
Fosshage's (1996) "disciplined spontaneous engagements," Shane, Shane,
and Gales' (1998) "self-transforming" and "interpersonal-sharing"
dimensions of relatedness and analysts' expressiveness; Slavin and
Kriegman's (1998) description of the need for the analyst to change, and
my own (1995b, 1997) use of the "analyst's experience of the patient"
(countertransference) and "facilitating responsiveness" are among
contemporary self psychologists' attempts to expand our
conceptualization of the complexity of the analytic interaction and the
analyst's participation.
Contemporary interpersonalists and American Relationists have
contributed substantially to expanding the expression and revelation of
the analyst's subjectivity in the analytic encounter. Ehrenberg
(1992), an interpersonalist, describes "the intimate edge" of the
analytic encounter. Amongst the Relationists, Renik (1998) describes
the new position of the analyst as "getting real." Aron (1996) invites
an analysand to be curious about the analyst's subjectivity. Benjamin
(1988, 1990) promotes the expression of the analyst's subjectivity, for
recognition of a subjectivity different and separate from one's own can
be growth promoting. Hoffman (1994) speaks of those moments when the
analyst "throws the book away" and responds in a highly personal way.
In the expansion of the analyst's participation we recognize that
anything we do verbally or nonverbally, consciously or unconsciously, is
a communication and reveals something about us. We now struggle about
what consciously to self-disclose, what to communicate in an effort to
facilitate an analysand's development (Bacal, 1998; Lichtenberg,
Lachman, and Fosshage, 2002). As an example of this expansion and as a
final topic I now turn briefly to the issue of love in the analytic
relationship.
To Love and To Be Loved
To love and to be loved is central in developing and maintaining
vitalizing self-experience. To love and to feel love involves a deep
empathic knowing, liking, respect for, and caring. With various
shadings, nuances and emotional valences love experience ranges from
parental love, to caregiver's love, to friendship love, to romantic
love.
The Analysand's Love of the Analyst
From the beginning psychoanalysts have attempted to unravel the
nature of the analysand's love of the analyst. Whereas Freud (1915)
thought that the analysand's transference love was anchored in
perceptions and feelings of the previous caretakers, he then added that
this is true in "every state of being in love" (p. 168), diminishing the
difference and the possibility of distinguishing between mature, healthy
love and neurotic, transference-based love.
If to give and receive love is central to development and maintenance
of vitality, then its emergence in the analytic relationship is not
surprising and needs to be welcomed and understood. Loving experience
in the analytic relationship always has its forbearers and our task is
to illuminate for the purpose of gaining freedom those implicit and
explicit patterns that constrict and encumber the vitalizing experience
of loving.
The Analyst's Participation in Mutual Expressions of Love
Beginning with Freud and Ferenczi, a battle has been waged between
those who have been wary about and those who have emphasized the
analyst's love for the patient as central to therapeutic action (Shaw,
2003). Even more controversial has been the analyst's expression of
love for the patient with understandable concerns about seduction and
exploitation of the patient for the analyst's needs. Loewald (1960),
however, spoke eloquently in likening the analyst's position to a
parental role in that the parent out of "love and respect for the
individual and for individual development" (p.229) helps to foster the
child's growth.
As for any analytic participation, whether expressive or silent,
dangers exist. In mutual expression of giving and receiving love, the
dangers, in my view, are essentially twofold in nature: 1) the analyst's
needs for love take priority over the patient's welfare; and 2) the
analyst is unavailable to co-create the developmentally needed loving
experiences. Let me share some of my personal experience as an analyst
in the clinical situation.
While my natural inclination as a psychoanalyst has been to
participate more fully, to be more open, and to be less anonymous than
the classical model and my classical training would have had it, I,
nevertheless, have struggled over the years to extricate myself further
from what I consider to be constricting remnants of my training. This
was certainly true in the late 1980's when I became increasingly
frustrated in finding a way to respond to patients who, during
especially mutually touching and poignant moments, would genuinely
express, "I love you." To accept a patient's feelings with simply a
note of acknowledgement felt, to me, to be an unsatisfactory,
non-participatory, and non-facilitating response. To remain
interpretively focused asymmetrically on the patient and the patient's
capacity to love likewise extricated me from the interaction,
diminishing the importance and emotional potency of the relational
experience for both the patient and myself. To use different, less
revealing, less intense, less risky words, like "fondness" or "liking,"
on these occasions, to convey how I felt toward the patient, even though
I experienced love for the patient, did not feel authentic or
reciprocal, and felt undermining of the mutuality of the moment. I
remember the day in 1990 when at the end of a deeply emotionally
touching session, my patient at the door said genuinely, "I love you."
Feeling strongly the same toward her, I responded simply, "I love you
too." I closed the door and the traditional analytic models came
crashing down in my head. I thought to myself, "What have I done now?
Was I seductive? Was I sexualizing the relationship? Did I lose my
analytic position?" I consoled myself, noting that it was a mutually
genuine exchange, a moment of mutual love that, in this instance, did
not feel particularly erotic, an experience, I felt, that would be
especially helpful for this patient to build new percepts of her self
and self with other. For the patient it so happened that this moment
became one nodal experience of loving and feeling loved, thus,
validating its importance and making it transformative for me as well.
From today's perspective, might our exchange be viewed as a poignant
"moment of meeting" (Stern, et. al., 1998)? In this moment two human
beings emotionally touch one another and, in this instance, express
their love and caring for one another-not expected as part of the
traditional analytic role, but now potentially legitimized by
contemporary psychoanalysis through the increased recognition of the
importance of relational experience and implicit procedural learning in
analytic work.
Multiple variables, of course, enter into the consideration of the
analyst's reciprocating expressions of love-including ages, genders,
sexual orientations, emotional moment, and the many meanings and comfort
level that expressions of love can have for each member of the dyad.
Crucially important in these mutual encounters is that the analyst is
authentic (Frank, 1999), that is, the analyst is in touch with and
speaking on the basis of their affective experience.
A question that usually comes to the fore quickly in discussions of
this topic is, "What if the analyst is not feeling love even though the
patient has expressed his or her love?" In my view, if an analyst does
not feel reciprocal love on these occasions, then he or she, of course,
cannot express it and remain authentically engaged, centrally important
in analytic interaction.
I will close with a brief clinical vignette. Some time ago a person
began analytic treatment with me saying that she had heard me speak,
liked it and had followed my presentations for the last 12 years. She
had found herself on occasion even getting angry with me during those 12
years for my not greeting her and, finally, realized that I did not know
her. When she told me that she had had a relationship with me for the
past 12 years, I responded, "I am sorry that I had missed out." After
3 months of analytic work, she caught me totally by surprise when at the
door she said, "You know, Jim, I love you." I spontaneously threw my
arms up in surprise and exclaimed, "What so fast?" I could not believe
that she loved me so quickly. But then it came to me and I added, "Oh
you have 12 years on me. I need a little time to catch up." Each of
us had been "true" to ourselves. This experience set the stage so that
the patient could more readily believe me down the line when I one day
was able to reciprocate and tell her that I loved her.
Thank you.
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